The Fog is Lifting

The fog is lifting. There has been fog that has taken over my life the last few months. It has infected nearly every aspect of my life. I’m not sure if the cocoon it created was protecting me or just allowing me to figure things out, but it has definitely been surrounding me and all I can say is that it has totally sucked. Yes, I am grown woman and yes, I still say it sucks.

Repetitive injuries sidelined my workouts, and I let them! That is, I LET them take over and bring me down emotionally too. Which just started an avalanche of slipping into former bad habits and overall sense of melancholy and dare I say a little depression?  I am not able to pinpoint many specifics beyond that and I still went on my merry way, going through the motions of my life but not embracing it. I am well-educated in other activities I could have been doing while injuries healed, but I didn’t and I truly believe that one aspect just infected everything else and jaded my mindset on a daily basis.

Amidst all that, my very favorite pastime, attending FSU Baseball games has been in full swing, with the team kicking butt to boot. This week they even hit #1 in the polls and the series match ups have been outstanding. They have also been exhausting, or it could just be me, therein had been my dilemma. I hide out and play the avoidance game while I regroup, just feeling tired. However, I know if I just got back on track with my exercise and food & drink habits, I will probably start feeling better. If some of my ongoing medical issues crop up, I have ways to work around them. In the meantime, I will take some inspiration from the team and I will continue to embrace how well my team is doing and enjoy the fun with my fellow fans as we help the boys get to Omaha.

Usually the Lenten season will inspire me and give me the boost I need to purge, reflect & renew my life goals, but this year has been a bit tougher mentally and I have been struggling with it. This always brings me to the saying my dad used: Mental Toughness! Normally, I think I have that in spades! No matter what stupid crap life throws at me, deal with it and move on, live & learn: all that good stuff. Every now & then though, I just wallow. I believe there is definitely a time and place for wallowing, the key is to not let it take over, but I have. Now I’m over it, time to get back in the game.

Let the games begin!